Time is relative. I once read something written on the value of time, for example: If you want to know the value of one month, ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby. If you want to know the value of one hour, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet. If you want to know the value of a minute, ask the man who just missed his train. If you want to know the value of a millisecond, ask the athlete who just missed the record.
I can’t remember everything, but every phrase gave a new meaning of a different value of time.
In ICU the days are long and time seems to stand still. It is never dark and feels like one very long day that never ends. Normally I feel like time flies and I want to set my watch to go slower, but not when you have a pipe down your throat, breathing on your behalf, waiting for the one hour two times a day your family can visit.
In my 19 day visit in ICU my bed was facing a round clock on the other side of the ward. I spent so much time watching the clock, but I could only read the time if I squint my eyes or put my glasses on.
In the mornings I checked the clock and waited for the doctor to do rounds, and then I waited for the physiotherapist. The afternoon was spent again waiting for the physiotherapist. If she came too late in the afternoon she might not be finished when the family arrived to visit me. Thinking back to that time, a lot of time was spent just waiting…
One of those days I was watching the clock, counting the hours when a song came into my head. I couldn’t remember the whole song but only one line of the verse… one day at a time, Jesus. I closed my eyes and asked the Lord “I can’t go one day at a time, can we rather take it hour by hour?”
From there on I became a little less obsessed with the time, because the Lord reminded me to take one thing at a time, step by step.
We don’t always see the big picture or know when something bad will end, but we know we can take one day at a time with Jesus, or even hour by hour if things really are at their worst for us. He will never leave us, and is the only One to give us peace as we go through life’s struggles.